I journeyed forth "Sparkle hunting" at the San Diego Zoo. Warm sunshine bathed my body with golden warmth, and a light breeze danced the leaves in the trees and cooled my heels.

This zoo is a wonderland of winding trails and verdant, lush landscape. As I walked in wonder I noticed people from all over the planet exploring with tired whining kids, spending a fortune on food at the many hidden restaurants. The colors, the sounds, the smells the wonder of it all.

I realized how I have shut myself off from others, as I stood there among so many, I was so alone. Yes it was beautiful, with lots and lots of people. Yet there I was.............alone in the center of masses amounts of people. I spoke with a few, yet I was aware that I avoided eye contact. Why would I do that.................it was uncomfortable for me, that eye contact. I believe I am not normally like this, I screamed internally (so as not to frighten anyone.) (NO WOMAN IS AN ISLAND!)

What fork in the road did I take to I S O L A T E ?????
What purpose does it serve, that serves me?? Perhaps I do not want to feel invisible or feel rejected...........in some odd way. So I do not even give myself a chance for either.........or ........contact. How sad. How wonderful to have this insight.

My sparkle.............it came from this awareness. For awareness is the first opportunity for change............thank you. Change is GOOD, I can do change.

As I wandered I was reminded of the places I have been and the things I have done on this wondrous planet. The elephants! I have sat on the head and the backs of 3, in India and Cambodia. Lucky lady!

The giraffes...................How clearly I remember them in Africa, willowy and graceful............such beauty in their movements. The lion.................the attack while on safari. The Secretary bird, we saw her sister in Africa as well.

My sparkle came from linking my present to my past today. Also from my physical senses and their pleasure at being in such a magical place. My steak tonight was awesome and so..........it has been a good day lived............another gift, one less until I leave this incredible sparkling earth.

Joy............yes, it comes from inside of me, my own joy. Nothing outside can really GIVE it to me. It comes from my own realization and striving for growth. Sparkle, it is a magical thing..........and for me it lives in gratitude and growth.
Good night!
Wishing you Sparkling dream-come-true sleeping tonight.